Brain Fog

I’ve been living with Fibromyalgia for about four years now. It brings with it a host of unpleasant symptoms, many of them painful but the one that causes me the most emotional discomfort is the brain fog.

The writing below was written at a time when I was feeling the affects of brain/fibro fog quite badly. Although it is always there and I’m aware of it every day, it doesn’t always feel this bad. Creativity is my main way of understanding and communicating my experiences, so here’s some writing and art on what it feels like to have brain fog.

When Thoughts Tangle And Thinking Hurts


I used to think in sentences, proper sentences. Like how we speak. But now my thoughts are never straight or ordered or still. They don't patiently wait their turn or cooperate with one another. Perhaps they bore too easily. Most of the time they fade away before I can really grasp hold of them. They are hard to piece together, sometimes impossible to hold onto. Some days are worse than others, when my thoughts are even more fragile like fraying fabric too loosely woven. They feel hideously light, always moving around by a constantly swirling breeze blowing through my brain. These thoughts I'm trying to tell you about. They are my thinking, the part of my brain that I need to use when I talk to others, learn something new, follow instructions, attempt a new recipe, do something as simple as write and send an email, make decisions, focus on information or retrieve memories. It makes doing these things tiring, frustrating and sometimes impossible. This is brain fog. This is all the time. This is just one way which Fibromyalgia affects me.

3 thoughts on “Brain Fog

  1. I read your post with sadness, but also with admiration that you can accomplish so many wonderful spouts of creativity under this stress. I experienced my own brain fog from the effects of wicked chemotherapy. My husband told me a year later that I asked the same thing three and four times. Now three years have passed and I am finally getting more clear-headed. I feel for your illness and only wish you all the best. It is obvious you are one strong cookie.

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    1. Hi Joanne and thank you so much for your comment on this. Being creative gives me the strength to cope. It’s also the place where I escape to. The brain fog itself doesn’t seem to have a negative affect on my creativity but it can be a total pain in most other areas of my life. I really struggle to make tea or coffee for people, always forgetting how many sugars they want even after repeatedly asking them! I’m so glad to hear that yours is clearing ♡

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